Dropping, dropping and dropping..

i cant believe I will use this time to type this blog...
it's time for me n you to have interaction...
this few days I had been thinking, jealous and whatsoever...
I dunno why I will feel like this. last night when keen wai broke his phone, I start to think that you will surely come to my room and chat with him, therefore I purposely disappear out of sight..

I cant really stand the feeling as I need to really interrupt the conversation of both of you.
Come to think of that, I never really chat deeply with you.
I dunno is my talking style or anything. I just feel that I had lost my confident. or maybe you realize it when hearing my conversation with keen wai at night?

I dunno why both of us will became like this........
I had never type this blog for so long. because I think that the interaction is enough to keep us together... but the answer is certainly NO.

I dunno how much friend you had, what you think, what you like, even how to chat with you anymore, everything had change. and today is the day I eat your dishes all alone. even if I tried to chat with you. you just reply with an "a, o, e" not more than 10 phrases.

I dunno how to make you smile. that is the worse part.. maybe I should really reconsider myself..
I really losing hope. feeling more and more jealous, more and more emo... but will this help? I even feel angry yesterday... I stated to really scare of myself...

I dunno what will happen now, or next on... all I know is that we are not like the olden days again...
I dunno what should I do and how should I do it...

I m really suffering. maybe thinking from your side it is unfair for you. but biasa la, I always do this kind of thing de.. always I m the one who's doing stupid thing for people.

sorry for playing game and watching movie for all this time. maybe you will think that why you say sorry.. == I also not your who who. I really regret for anti social all this moment. come to think of that, I really had less and lesser topic to chat with you...

and I really don't get excited/make you happy when chatting with you, normally all the reply you given me will be very serious. really serious. or else, you will just flip your eyes and say boring.
I really dunno when shall I give you the blog address.. maybe forever I will keep it? lol.

Hope things don't go out of control... I really don't like the me and you now...

LOL< inactive>

Since when I will be brave enough to give you this blog?
Lol, this few days you cooked for me, for the whole week... gan dong...
I dunno you cook for me whether is to find a partner to eat, too boring or save money or really wanna cook, love cooking... I don't care... as long as you cook, I will eat, as simple as that.
everyday I feel like rushing back from company to accompany you to cook.
I always thinking that to hug you from behind and the sweet scene always occur on my mind.
I didn't do that. I m scared. I m not brave enough, maybe is not the time ba.

had been write lesser and lesser lately. ><.
but really, I really feel sour when seeing you and keen wai had so many topic to chat on. which none of them I m interested in.. how come you two got so many same hobbies de... beh tahan man... ><><><

ok la, that's all... I will eat anything you cook.. bwahahahaahha...
good night.

Beautiful friday

today you cooked spaghetti for us...
I really feel sorry for you to cook three round. is too hard la.. next time sekali gus ya.
I purposely wait till the end just eat de... see you so kelian.
then we walk together to throw rubbish... = =
of all the fun is watching running man... lol... u had watched before but still can watch again... geng... >.<
these day seldom type le... broadband connection too slow la... hehe...
ok, good night. today see you not feeling well after come back from dong chan shi... are you alright??

sweet and sour

thanks for the cook on Thursday night. really delicious... ><
all the thing you cook for me will be delicious de la ^^

and then when it's time for going back, actually I want to jio you back Malacca de... but not dare la... haiz...

then when come back... not a really good trip.. trap in the bus..... no.... but I really enjoy the moment with you... then there come in keen wai... all the thing I can say is... sour........ haiz...

then today I sour again when you come into my room... why huh... when you actually lay down in your bed and watch the novel, as usual, I actually wanna go and chat with you, but I just cant... aiks...
scare no topic ba.. ><