I came back from Malacca today. When I came back, you were still sick.. So kesian.. You said that you will go get an MC tomorrow when you see the doctor. You keep on stressing that the clinic is very near to your company. what does this indicates? If I drove back here, I would surely fetch you to see the doctor immediately. But the problem is, would you accept my ride? You liked to help people, care for people, attend to their problem and help them solve it, comfort them, and everything, but when you face problem, you will just solve it yourself. This shows that you are a tough one, a strong one. But the thing is I can only look it through the outside of you, I had never look to the inner part of your heart. Of course there's still a lot of barrier to access to your inner heart.. But I will try..
Then you went out, thx for the watermelon. And thx for watching this idiot play game. I start to think that you care for everyone, not just me. And I think that it has been a mistake, a big mistake for me to start to like you. It's just one way trip. You know what, I had been thinking of you the whole journey back from Malacca to TBS.
Now, I started to think that I lost the ability to create topic between two of us. I start to feel scare, scare of loosing you even as a friend, scare that you will shift back to ukm when you know the truth. Tonight, I learnt from keen wai that xin yan and him are discussing about me. He told me of their conversation. After I heard that, I feel discourage, disappointed and sad. I'm really confuse when I heard it. but, when I see this blog, I know that I must continue it, as far as possible. I must not be affected by others. This is my story, perhaps our story. And I am the one who shall try my own path..
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